I mentioned once that I like to psychoanalyze my self and figure things out almost from a third person standpoint. My favorite and most useful way of doing this is how I act in social situation because I have to do everything there on demand. This comes easily to most people and pretty easily to me if I know the people. However, right now I'm just beginning college and of the freshmen I know NOBODY.
This is a unique thing because until now I had pretty much my entire life to make friends in elementary/middle/high school so that I always knew someone and if I'm by someone I know I can talk to people I don't know pretty easily. But now it's pretty much nobody.
I'm diagnosing myself (if that's allowed) with a small touch of "Social anxiety". I'm aware of what it is now because I'm alone in my dorm (which is fine because I have stuff to unpack). Social anxiety basically means that when thrust into a large social scene without knowing anyone (like freshmen orientation), I sorta clam up and honestly have to force myself to breathe. It stems from a fear of not making friends I suppose (I was going to say not being accepted, but frankly I'm pretty cool with not being accepted, just liked). However, I also have an opposite problem which is that I don't like being the "satellite" or the person who's kinda on the edge of a conversing group or alone in the lunchroom.
Actually that's an interesting insight. I went to the cafeteria alone today to eat, got sorta lost finding the different selections of food so I just picked a small plate of something and sat down alone. This made me feel awkward so I ate a bit of it and left quickly. This in conglomeration with freshmen orientation and traveling (and a migraine) has led to me not having a good full meal in about 2 days.
Seems my "freshman 15" might be negative. Oh well, I'll get through it!
(I got bored and took a test... here ya gohttp://www.personaldna.com/report.php?k=ErTqhMjluSJDLWX-CG-ADDCA-51d6&u=a9452792afcc )
This is a unique thing because until now I had pretty much my entire life to make friends in elementary/middle/high school so that I always knew someone and if I'm by someone I know I can talk to people I don't know pretty easily. But now it's pretty much nobody.
I'm diagnosing myself (if that's allowed) with a small touch of "Social anxiety". I'm aware of what it is now because I'm alone in my dorm (which is fine because I have stuff to unpack). Social anxiety basically means that when thrust into a large social scene without knowing anyone (like freshmen orientation), I sorta clam up and honestly have to force myself to breathe. It stems from a fear of not making friends I suppose (I was going to say not being accepted, but frankly I'm pretty cool with not being accepted, just liked). However, I also have an opposite problem which is that I don't like being the "satellite" or the person who's kinda on the edge of a conversing group or alone in the lunchroom.
Actually that's an interesting insight. I went to the cafeteria alone today to eat, got sorta lost finding the different selections of food so I just picked a small plate of something and sat down alone. This made me feel awkward so I ate a bit of it and left quickly. This in conglomeration with freshmen orientation and traveling (and a migraine) has led to me not having a good full meal in about 2 days.
Seems my "freshman 15" might be negative. Oh well, I'll get through it!
(I got bored and took a test... here ya gohttp://www.personaldna.com/report.php?k=ErTqhMjluSJDLWX-CG-ADDCA-51d6&u=a9452792afcc )
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