Yes hello, are you there? I hope all's going well with your life. Are your endeavors paying of? Are you following your dreams and fighting adversity? Don't let someone else decide your life y'know. Otherwise you might not get to where you want to be.
Has your life so far been easy? Or has it been difficult? No matter what, someone has it better and someone has it worse. Such is life.
How was your day today? If it's early in the day, then how was your evening yesterday? I do so hope it went well. Seriously, I do. I might not even know you, but I hope you are having a good life.
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Well anyways, I had a decent day yesterday too I think. I put the final nail in my social coffin by putting together a Dungeons and Dragons character. (Well I guess I'll have my D&D group) Is that a turn on to any girls out there? Just checkin'. I've been getting more into comic-y art lately, and I might post some up. Also, I have a friend who's running a sort of comic/journal thing on his blog which has quite a few followers which I do guest strips for occasionally. I don't think they're posted yet, but they will soonish. It's at myskinnyjeansarered.blogspot.com for your knowledge. Also, the author is going on his mission soon and is leaving the blog and comics with me and a couple other friends so the artwork will not be as good, but might have a good element of humor, I don't know.
Oh, Harry Potter tonight. I've been there from beginning to end!
Jul 14, 2011
Jul 11, 2011
Just generic whining again
I don't dislike social interaction. I mean, I may not be the socialest of butterflies, but I'm no antisocial. That is, I don't want to be. Hanging out with people is something I enjoy, though I'm not particularly good at it. I'd like to meet new people. I'd be ok with meeting girl people, frankly. I wouldn't say I'm lonely, because I do have a couple of pretty good friends here. Maybe I'm just adjusting to starting at base one more slowly than others. The problem is that while I take my time, they're all out making friends in a method that is unfathomable to me.
Interesting.
Heck, some guys here already have girlfriends here from what I can tell. I'm not saying that that's a goal of mine (ok, yes it it, who am I kidding?) I guess I'm just socially slow. Probably no big surprise to anyone who knew me back home. For some reason it keeps surprising me though.
right ok, bye
Interesting.
Heck, some guys here already have girlfriends here from what I can tell. I'm not saying that that's a goal of mine (ok, yes it it, who am I kidding?) I guess I'm just socially slow. Probably no big surprise to anyone who knew me back home. For some reason it keeps surprising me though.
right ok, bye
Jul 9, 2011
:(
Normally I don't put photos on my blog because I'm just mega lazy, but I saw this on a friends blog and I'm not gonna lie, I got close to crying. I'd put myself at a class "B" Potter fan, but even that part of the book almost made me not finish.
*sniff*
Jul 7, 2011
Randomness #7
I'm in class, but it's taken boredom to a whole new level of uniqueness... Plus the notes are online, and it looks like all the test answers are there, but I guess I'm old fashioned and I actually go to the lectures. The subject is one I'm actually interested in (Psychology).
-Ocarina of Time took my whole day yesterday and I only got through the water temple (otherwise known as the impossible temple) I confess I used the walkthrough a bit.
-I'm pretty sure I've got a slight fever that was worse last night. Oh dear.
-To me, there's hardly any difference between a chocolate muffin and chocolates cupcakes, besides the frosting. Apparently they're quite differently made, but frankly I just think they are both delicious (though I confess to feeling better about myself if I choose the muffin for some reason.)
-New Vlogs out! Pretty fun stuff there! Also, Aaron has a Vlog too, which you can link to from mine if you feel so inclined.
-I want a recumbent bicycle... Badly. Also on the "odd transportation that seems awesome to me" list: Segway.
-When I said segway I though of subway, which might be my favorite restaurant on campus. On a related note, my student dining card has a HUGE money back up because I don't eat much (which is to the fault of the church and athletic camps here, they clog up lines!) so I've actually just bought random people food. Technically I bought a girl dinner. Yay?
-The new Harry Potter movie is out soon, which I guess I'm pretty excited for. I'm not a Harry Potter super fan, but I do enjoy the series as well as most of the movies (the fourth movie was not top-notch).
-I would never hate someone because they were beautiful. Unless they told me "Don't hate me because I'm beautiful"... then there might be a bad taste in my mouth.
-Actually, I've noticed a change in how attractive a person seems to me based on their personality. An example is when I asked a girl who at first looked quite fine in my eye, but she rejected me in a cold manner and then I found out that she actually had the personality of a nearly dead horse. Curiously, though she didn't change her outer image at all, I could not for the life of me find her beautiful anymore.
-How now brown tow-truck? (wait... what?)
-I think my favorite pieve of Classical music would definitely have to be Mozarts Symphony 40 in G minor. For Baroque, Bach's Toccata and Fugue in D minor,which I realize is just generic Bach, but I've actually listened to his other works, so I can actually claim it. His "little" fugue in G minor is also good. Though I admit I'm a sucker for any pipe organ song in a minor key. Oh I'm in Music 202 by the way. I dislike renaissance music for the most part and we haven't started Romantic Era yet, though arguably Beethoven has a romantic sound to his works.
-I'm not depressed today!
-Ocarina of Time took my whole day yesterday and I only got through the water temple (otherwise known as the impossible temple) I confess I used the walkthrough a bit.
-I'm pretty sure I've got a slight fever that was worse last night. Oh dear.
-To me, there's hardly any difference between a chocolate muffin and chocolates cupcakes, besides the frosting. Apparently they're quite differently made, but frankly I just think they are both delicious (though I confess to feeling better about myself if I choose the muffin for some reason.)
-New Vlogs out! Pretty fun stuff there! Also, Aaron has a Vlog too, which you can link to from mine if you feel so inclined.
-I want a recumbent bicycle... Badly. Also on the "odd transportation that seems awesome to me" list: Segway.
-When I said segway I though of subway, which might be my favorite restaurant on campus. On a related note, my student dining card has a HUGE money back up because I don't eat much (which is to the fault of the church and athletic camps here, they clog up lines!) so I've actually just bought random people food. Technically I bought a girl dinner. Yay?
-The new Harry Potter movie is out soon, which I guess I'm pretty excited for. I'm not a Harry Potter super fan, but I do enjoy the series as well as most of the movies (the fourth movie was not top-notch).
-I would never hate someone because they were beautiful. Unless they told me "Don't hate me because I'm beautiful"... then there might be a bad taste in my mouth.
-Actually, I've noticed a change in how attractive a person seems to me based on their personality. An example is when I asked a girl who at first looked quite fine in my eye, but she rejected me in a cold manner and then I found out that she actually had the personality of a nearly dead horse. Curiously, though she didn't change her outer image at all, I could not for the life of me find her beautiful anymore.
-How now brown tow-truck? (wait... what?)
-I think my favorite pieve of Classical music would definitely have to be Mozarts Symphony 40 in G minor. For Baroque, Bach's Toccata and Fugue in D minor,which I realize is just generic Bach, but I've actually listened to his other works, so I can actually claim it. His "little" fugue in G minor is also good. Though I admit I'm a sucker for any pipe organ song in a minor key. Oh I'm in Music 202 by the way. I dislike renaissance music for the most part and we haven't started Romantic Era yet, though arguably Beethoven has a romantic sound to his works.
-I'm not depressed today!
Jul 5, 2011
Scientific method
The steps of the scientific method, as applied to me, because I'm going to be as egocentric as I want on this blog that hardly anyone reads. Ha.
First, let's review what the actual steps are:
Question: Is it possible for Khail Ballard to meet a fine woman in college? (like seriously, is it even doable?!?!)
Background research: In high school Khail did in fact have a few girlfriends with whom he spent good fun times with. It also seemed that they inexplicably liked Khail back, maybe even loved him. (Khail dabbled with love, it can suck sometimes, but not always). However, since his most recent split coupled with a move to a far away land (Utah) Khail is back to base one, which is awkward shyness around girls.
Hypothesis: Maybe if Khail lights his hand on fire or does some of his other not-particularly-safe fire tricks, women will be impressed and he will have a chance to break the ice.
...
That's as far as I've gotten, hypothesis is still untested. Also I run the risk of burning my hand off, it's been awhile since I've done this.
First, let's review what the actual steps are:
Ask a Question- Do Background Research
- Construct a Hypothesis
- Test Your Hypothesis by Doing an Experiment
- Analyze Your Data and Draw a Conclusion
- Communicate Your Results
Question: Is it possible for Khail Ballard to meet a fine woman in college? (like seriously, is it even doable?!?!)
Background research: In high school Khail did in fact have a few girlfriends with whom he spent good fun times with. It also seemed that they inexplicably liked Khail back, maybe even loved him. (Khail dabbled with love, it can suck sometimes, but not always). However, since his most recent split coupled with a move to a far away land (Utah) Khail is back to base one, which is awkward shyness around girls.
Hypothesis: Maybe if Khail lights his hand on fire or does some of his other not-particularly-safe fire tricks, women will be impressed and he will have a chance to break the ice.
...
That's as far as I've gotten, hypothesis is still untested. Also I run the risk of burning my hand off, it's been awhile since I've done this.
Jul 4, 2011
Where am I going with this
An image is a curious thing. It's also something that is supposedly inescapable, though I've tried. I guess it's not something everyone thinks about a lot. The "if I do this, what will my image be?" syndrom strikes some and not others. I would say I have a slightly mild case of it, but that's besides the point.
What I want to know is if someone's image is who they actually are? Acting different around people than you do one your own is pretty much second nature to most people I believe. However, just because we act different with folks doesn't necessarily mean that that's not who we are.
What I mean is that one's "image" is probably more of an act than most people realize. When we do things to be who we like to be in front of people, we take that upon ourselves and it becomes who we are slowly (in most cases).
I'll use myself as an example, because arguably I know me better than anyone else... maybe.
So for a good portion of high school I was in the "finding myself" stage that a lot of insecure folks like myself go through. It carried slightly on to college, but with the addition of two new friends (Daniel and Aaron, you'll probably hear more about them) I've sorta gotten better about figuring out things that I like.
And it's all the things I said I liked so I could look indie in High school...
By just showing myself as the indie/nerdy guy (cuz I sure couldn't pull of jock or prep) I've really begun to enjoy indie/nerdy things and I guess I could accurately say that that's not only my image, but who I really am.
Don't get me wrong, I'll still march to the beat of my own drummer instead of bending to my supposed image, but I sure have taken to it.
This post made more sense in my mind than in writing.
And for some reason, after multiple months, I thought of Trocker for no reason except to miss her. Weird weird weird weird odd dumb weird weird.... grr
What I want to know is if someone's image is who they actually are? Acting different around people than you do one your own is pretty much second nature to most people I believe. However, just because we act different with folks doesn't necessarily mean that that's not who we are.
What I mean is that one's "image" is probably more of an act than most people realize. When we do things to be who we like to be in front of people, we take that upon ourselves and it becomes who we are slowly (in most cases).
I'll use myself as an example, because arguably I know me better than anyone else... maybe.
So for a good portion of high school I was in the "finding myself" stage that a lot of insecure folks like myself go through. It carried slightly on to college, but with the addition of two new friends (Daniel and Aaron, you'll probably hear more about them) I've sorta gotten better about figuring out things that I like.
And it's all the things I said I liked so I could look indie in High school...
By just showing myself as the indie/nerdy guy (cuz I sure couldn't pull of jock or prep) I've really begun to enjoy indie/nerdy things and I guess I could accurately say that that's not only my image, but who I really am.
Don't get me wrong, I'll still march to the beat of my own drummer instead of bending to my supposed image, but I sure have taken to it.
This post made more sense in my mind than in writing.
And for some reason, after multiple months, I thought of Trocker for no reason except to miss her. Weird weird weird weird odd dumb weird weird.... grr
Jul 2, 2011
Feelin' better
I might have still been crabby if I hadn't taken drastic measures to prevent it. I bought an N64 and Zelda: Ocarina of Time. This has been a goal of mine for a long time. I'm happy now.
Very happy
Very happy
Jul 1, 2011
I'm in a state of angst
Angsty angsty angstness. Grrr, I hate you all.
No not really, you're probably all fine people. I'm just being crabby all of sudden for a bunch of stupid reasons. My life's fine, I'm just... oh... depressed right now. This bugs me because I've been fending that off pretty which is partially due to the fact that it's almost always sunny in Provo and that can actually have an effect on moods.
But not this one. This is a straight up, no foolin' around, I feel so worthless and unaccomplished low down funk. Blahghremuggle...
I guess there a few things that nag me, and they aren't causing the angst, but they aren't helping:
-Inconsistent eating, yesterday I had nearly nothing
-Really weird and sometimes unsettling dreams of things I though I was done with
-I got turned down from a really nice job that I thought I had a solid chance at. :'(
-I haven't really gotten to know any people of the opposite gender. (I'm not saying it's totally important to, but I think it'd be neat to meet some nice girls, but it seems like they sure don't want to meet me)
-I might not have on-campus housing for Fall semester, due to my own stupidity.
An odd thing that I do when I'm in a crummy mood is that I nearly always perpetuate it by listening to depressing music and going sorta reclusive (well MORE reclusive because I'm useless, remember?) Frankly sometimes I wonder how I get out at all, but usually a decent nights sleep will do it... as long as my dreams stay sane.
I... I just need to get some sleep, dang it. I swear sometimes I feel like I fit nowhere. Nowhere at all.
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Happy freaking July
No not really, you're probably all fine people. I'm just being crabby all of sudden for a bunch of stupid reasons. My life's fine, I'm just... oh... depressed right now. This bugs me because I've been fending that off pretty which is partially due to the fact that it's almost always sunny in Provo and that can actually have an effect on moods.
But not this one. This is a straight up, no foolin' around, I feel so worthless and unaccomplished low down funk. Blahghremuggle...
I guess there a few things that nag me, and they aren't causing the angst, but they aren't helping:
-Inconsistent eating, yesterday I had nearly nothing
-Really weird and sometimes unsettling dreams of things I though I was done with
-I got turned down from a really nice job that I thought I had a solid chance at. :'(
-I haven't really gotten to know any people of the opposite gender. (I'm not saying it's totally important to, but I think it'd be neat to meet some nice girls, but it seems like they sure don't want to meet me)
-I might not have on-campus housing for Fall semester, due to my own stupidity.
An odd thing that I do when I'm in a crummy mood is that I nearly always perpetuate it by listening to depressing music and going sorta reclusive (well MORE reclusive because I'm useless, remember?) Frankly sometimes I wonder how I get out at all, but usually a decent nights sleep will do it... as long as my dreams stay sane.
I... I just need to get some sleep, dang it. I swear sometimes I feel like I fit nowhere. Nowhere at all.
...
Happy freaking July
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