You ruined the perfect blue sky, little single cloud!
Also, I got Rickrolled today, how retro is that?
Aug 8, 2011
Aug 6, 2011
another one of those "explanations"
I don't think love is a disease or drug to be honest. I've just had a few friends who have had bad luck with it recently, so I did what I could to help. It also brought up some of my failings and I wrote a blog post about it again. So if you liked it, then that's great, and if you didn't, then I apologize.
So I've been considering dreams again because I had a few more vivid ones last night (they were vivid at the time, but now they're pretty unclear. Stupid faulty dream memory). All I remember is that they were both very good, but in different ways. One was future good, in that it involved my playing the game Zelda :Windwaker, which is on my "once I get money I'll buy this" list. The other was past good, in that it was "these are memories I never want to lose, but won't be repeated ever again most likely". The future good one I have no qualms with because it's a realistic dream that will probably be realized sometime in the near future.
Now the past good dream... I almost wonder if I would've rather not had it. The reasoning is a weak-willed one and that's that the past won't happen again and I was forced to relive it. I woke up to the dismay of finding out that it had been a dream and that I'm still here as a finding-himself kinda lonely college guy. Was that brief interlude in my sleep worth it? I can't say... Would I have rather had a nightmare? Probably not, so I guess it was better than the alternative.
So I've been considering dreams again because I had a few more vivid ones last night (they were vivid at the time, but now they're pretty unclear. Stupid faulty dream memory). All I remember is that they were both very good, but in different ways. One was future good, in that it involved my playing the game Zelda :Windwaker, which is on my "once I get money I'll buy this" list. The other was past good, in that it was "these are memories I never want to lose, but won't be repeated ever again most likely". The future good one I have no qualms with because it's a realistic dream that will probably be realized sometime in the near future.
Now the past good dream... I almost wonder if I would've rather not had it. The reasoning is a weak-willed one and that's that the past won't happen again and I was forced to relive it. I woke up to the dismay of finding out that it had been a dream and that I'm still here as a finding-himself kinda lonely college guy. Was that brief interlude in my sleep worth it? I can't say... Would I have rather had a nightmare? Probably not, so I guess it was better than the alternative.
Aug 3, 2011
A synopsis
It affects blood pressure. In fact, certain stimuli can cause momentary flushing. Hormones in the mind are affected and increased in some manners. Pulse rates vary, in some cases individual heartbeats are affected and sometimes even skipped. Nausea and anxiety are common. Although not physically, the symptoms can be spread or even sought with prolonged exposure to another with them through a mental process. Curiously, unpleasant side-effects can become even more severe after the stimuli are removed, showing signs of withdrawal.
Based on this evidence, romantic love is either a disease or a drug. Curious
Based on this evidence, romantic love is either a disease or a drug. Curious
Aug 2, 2011
This is me
I surrender again my social ability to experience. I did almost talk to someone of opposite gender, but alas, insecurity (and Daniel a bit) met me and killed that chance. Ah well. I admit I was a bit more down about this yesterday, but truthfully I'm not feelin' all that bad about it right now. Not exactly sure why, probably just this weird rationalization system.
Sort of like how I'm trying to rationalize playing Civilization IV in Psych right now... It's a good game and Psych is SO dull... but I really shouldn't. I won't... hopefully.
Actually because I don't really talk to girls here I think my friends think I'm just not that interested in them. Not gay, just not seeking female companionship. That's not true, I am certainly interested in girls and would like to meet a few. In fact, this is the first time in my life (since, I don't know 7th grade?) that I've not had either a girlfriend or crush on some girl. How sad is that?
I should probably stop typing now, or I will get a bit down. I'm otherwise in a good mood today.
Sort of like how I'm trying to rationalize playing Civilization IV in Psych right now... It's a good game and Psych is SO dull... but I really shouldn't. I won't... hopefully.
Actually because I don't really talk to girls here I think my friends think I'm just not that interested in them. Not gay, just not seeking female companionship. That's not true, I am certainly interested in girls and would like to meet a few. In fact, this is the first time in my life (since, I don't know 7th grade?) that I've not had either a girlfriend or crush on some girl. How sad is that?
I should probably stop typing now, or I will get a bit down. I'm otherwise in a good mood today.
Jul 30, 2011
Life on set
I was editing in the school's lab to do a vlog post one day and I ran into a guy who was a bit older than me who was uploading film. We got to talking and I found out he was a rather large scale independent director. A little more talking showed he needed crew for his next film's massacre scene. I volunteered and today I spent all day helping on the set, which is a wonderful stepping stone to someone who wants to get into media arts more. Experience is a good thing. Also as an added bonus, an "extra" family member (who gets killed) was missing so they had me do it. I got to act AND work on crew!
I also got a lot of fake blood on me, it's kinda gross, but kinda cool as well.
Is this what fame feels like?
I also got a lot of fake blood on me, it's kinda gross, but kinda cool as well.
Is this what fame feels like?
Jul 28, 2011
Hello my freaky darlings
Well I've decided to start a new blog for my comics and art. I'll put the link on this post later today if you've actually kept that up to date on my blog. I'm thinking of calling it steppingstone because it's all the comics (that I write) that will eventually end up on MSJAR before they are released there, plus a few that I might just make for my own purposes.
The purpose for this is that I'd really like this blog to be more for my thoughts on stuff, or just when I get good and crabby and feel like venting to no one in particular. So if you enjoy my comics and such, you should probably go to the new blog which can be reached by this link: http://capriciouscomics.blogspot.com/
Give me views!
And it's called Capricious webcomics, which is cooler than my steppingstone idea by a long shot.
The purpose for this is that I'd really like this blog to be more for my thoughts on stuff, or just when I get good and crabby and feel like venting to no one in particular. So if you enjoy my comics and such, you should probably go to the new blog which can be reached by this link: http://capriciouscomics.blogspot.com/
Give me views!
And it's called Capricious webcomics, which is cooler than my steppingstone idea by a long shot.
Jul 26, 2011
Jul 24, 2011
Wir sind gleich (we are equals)
So I got pretty bored and decided to skim the internet looking for bad people. No real reason, and trust me, you don't have to look far on the interweb. I found a very sickly society in the neo-nazi party of America.
(Very prolonged sigh)
...
I read a bit of their stuff on the website because I don't like to pass judgement if I was uninformed, but it was a waste of my time because all my ideas were right anyhow. The website had a big panicked looking headline that said something like "Now 4 states are more minority than white!" Umm.... so? They also had merchandise covered in swastikas and somewhat uninformed looking books such as "Why race matters", "Who runs the media?" (the insinuation was that the Jews do) and "Slavery and the Jews". If they're referring to the slavery that took place in America a long time ago (terrible practice, can't believe we did that) I don't think Jews really took any more part in it than anyone else. Probably less actually since at the time they were newer immigrants with a little less money than some. But what can you expect from the "master-race"? Now I am not officially an "Aryan" (I'm mostly European, true, but I've got a bit of Native American in me and no blue eyes or blond hair), so I've never been contacted by this party, but my friend Aaron, who has blond hair and blue eyes, got the offer from them to pay for his schooling. Being a sensible person, he didn't go for it (BYU wouldn't go for it either) and the joke's on the nazis. Aaron's part Jewish! Do they actually go on looks alone? Seems kinda shallow.
One of the agendas on the neo-nazi site was an all-aryan nation. The premise being that there are all African nations, all Asian nations, and even an all Jewish nation (good heavens!) so why not an all Aryan nation? Well sorry folks, but the self-proclaimed Aryans (who are the annoying ones, there are plenty of people who could pass as Aryan who just don't consider themselves that way for simple reasons) have never really needed a country of their own. It's implausible! Of course if making this country didn't uproot anyone else, and all the neo-nazis went to live in it, well maybe then it's not such a terrible idea. They'd be out of our hair at least.
I think there's one reason that the nazis slightly trouble me and that's because a number of them know how to work the system. They aren't all crazy people with death wishes (at least not public death wishes) who like to parade swastikas through Jewish neighborhoods (though on one occasion they did win the right to do that, thank heavens they backed out.) The website mentioned going through smaller means like school boards and city councils. They can legally do this and go ahead and put Nazi clubs in schools. ... THAT'S HOW HITLER STARTED HIS BRAINWASHING!!!! This is troubling.
Now, if someone with racist attitudes (the website said everyone was racist, I guess I didn't realize I don't have a choice in the matter) goes out and does something terrible, such as a bombing or shooting, they get locked up forever. Any group they affiliated with gets investigated and often restricted if it echoed the sentiments. The damage can't be undone and it is horrible, but any future problems from that group is prevented. If, however, a group tries to go through only legal practices like the neo nazis attempt, they have the right to free speech to spew their crap.
Understand me here: I do not think that this is a grave threat. Enough people have common sense to ignore and deflect the nazi attempts and the movement probable won't expand. I honestly don't think it will grow any time soon. It just seems kinda odd to me that this party still exists. Race...
Here's what race means to me. I'm talking strictly the physical differences, mainly skin color. If I compare myself, a pretty white guy, to an African American gentlemen, the only thing I'm really going to think about our different tones is "Dang, he probably doesn't sunburn... lucky!" and that's the extent I think anyone should take in a first meeting with someone of different color.
Seriously nazis, go outside, take a deep breath, wave to your Asian neighbor, who will be apprehensive at first because you have a swastika flag, but will relax when you take it down and throw it out. Then go learn to golf or something. Race is just race. You can be proud of your own if you want, but it doesn't make it better than someone else's. It's not.
(Very prolonged sigh)
...
I read a bit of their stuff on the website because I don't like to pass judgement if I was uninformed, but it was a waste of my time because all my ideas were right anyhow. The website had a big panicked looking headline that said something like "Now 4 states are more minority than white!" Umm.... so? They also had merchandise covered in swastikas and somewhat uninformed looking books such as "Why race matters", "Who runs the media?" (the insinuation was that the Jews do) and "Slavery and the Jews". If they're referring to the slavery that took place in America a long time ago (terrible practice, can't believe we did that) I don't think Jews really took any more part in it than anyone else. Probably less actually since at the time they were newer immigrants with a little less money than some. But what can you expect from the "master-race"? Now I am not officially an "Aryan" (I'm mostly European, true, but I've got a bit of Native American in me and no blue eyes or blond hair), so I've never been contacted by this party, but my friend Aaron, who has blond hair and blue eyes, got the offer from them to pay for his schooling. Being a sensible person, he didn't go for it (BYU wouldn't go for it either) and the joke's on the nazis. Aaron's part Jewish! Do they actually go on looks alone? Seems kinda shallow.
One of the agendas on the neo-nazi site was an all-aryan nation. The premise being that there are all African nations, all Asian nations, and even an all Jewish nation (good heavens!) so why not an all Aryan nation? Well sorry folks, but the self-proclaimed Aryans (who are the annoying ones, there are plenty of people who could pass as Aryan who just don't consider themselves that way for simple reasons) have never really needed a country of their own. It's implausible! Of course if making this country didn't uproot anyone else, and all the neo-nazis went to live in it, well maybe then it's not such a terrible idea. They'd be out of our hair at least.
I think there's one reason that the nazis slightly trouble me and that's because a number of them know how to work the system. They aren't all crazy people with death wishes (at least not public death wishes) who like to parade swastikas through Jewish neighborhoods (though on one occasion they did win the right to do that, thank heavens they backed out.) The website mentioned going through smaller means like school boards and city councils. They can legally do this and go ahead and put Nazi clubs in schools. ... THAT'S HOW HITLER STARTED HIS BRAINWASHING!!!! This is troubling.
Now, if someone with racist attitudes (the website said everyone was racist, I guess I didn't realize I don't have a choice in the matter) goes out and does something terrible, such as a bombing or shooting, they get locked up forever. Any group they affiliated with gets investigated and often restricted if it echoed the sentiments. The damage can't be undone and it is horrible, but any future problems from that group is prevented. If, however, a group tries to go through only legal practices like the neo nazis attempt, they have the right to free speech to spew their crap.
Understand me here: I do not think that this is a grave threat. Enough people have common sense to ignore and deflect the nazi attempts and the movement probable won't expand. I honestly don't think it will grow any time soon. It just seems kinda odd to me that this party still exists. Race...
Here's what race means to me. I'm talking strictly the physical differences, mainly skin color. If I compare myself, a pretty white guy, to an African American gentlemen, the only thing I'm really going to think about our different tones is "Dang, he probably doesn't sunburn... lucky!" and that's the extent I think anyone should take in a first meeting with someone of different color.
Seriously nazis, go outside, take a deep breath, wave to your Asian neighbor, who will be apprehensive at first because you have a swastika flag, but will relax when you take it down and throw it out. Then go learn to golf or something. Race is just race. You can be proud of your own if you want, but it doesn't make it better than someone else's. It's not.
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